“my few physically intimate experiences with women…”

My few physically intimate experiences with women occurred with friends while we were drunk. Since that first time, 6 years ago now, I have been telling myself that I think women are beautiful but that I must be straight because I’ve never been able to picture my future with another woman as my partner. Like, when I imagine my future family, I have always seen a man by my side. Recently I have started to question the story I have been telling myself about my sexuality. And so: there is a big part of me that wonders if the reason I have never been able to picture myself creating a family with a woman is because I grew up in such a heteronormative society, in which true couples are made up of a man plus a woman. I don’t know if I will ever gain clarity in this area, but I am glad to be back to asking questions within myself.