I was raped once.

I was raped once. But I have always hesitated to call it that because to me, it wasn’t a big deal in the way that many rapes are. In other words, I was raped but internally delegitimized it to myself and didn’t allow myself to believe I had been wronged in such a way by someone I trusted at the time in a lame attempt to protect them. Now looking back on it I am angry for not doing what I would do now.